Our Collective Journal
August/September 2013
“I have often felt a motion of love to leave some hints
in writing of my experience of the goodness of God.”
–John Woolman
Chapter 14
When has minding the Light
taken you “off the map”?
Crossings, mixed media by Cody F. Miller
http://www.codyfmiller.com/
Posted on October 17, 2013
As a teen I had directional dyslexia. I always carried dimes for phone calls in case I lost my way. Moving ten times before I turned sixteen may have thrown off my compass. While others might have become more competent travelers due to frequent relocation, I was hardly a trailblazer. In 1971, I stopped for an unexpected layover in Paris with a group of twenty exchange students heading to Barcelona. All public transportation was...
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Posted on October 17, 2013
I always wanted to believe that God listens to prayers and that miracles really happen, but I’m not sure I was convinced until I stepped off the map. I mean this literally in that I had to give up some comforts, travel to very poor countries, and try to make a difference in the medical care in these places. Sixteen years ago, I traveled to the Peruvian Yearly Meeting with a group of five...
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Posted on October 17, 2013
When I was a child, our breakfast nook had two maps of the world: one was from the 18th Century, the other from the mid-1950s. I was intrigued by the idea that, through the process of exploration and discovery, we could so improve our understanding of our world. I decided then that I wanted to be an explorer and discoverer. Maps tell me about my place in the physical world. The sense of knowing...
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Posted on October 17, 2013
I didn’t intend to be a church-goer. A solid decade since I took on the name “non-believer,” my re-acquaintance with church came via my daughter, who expressed an interest. Not wanting to repeat my parents’ insistence on homogenous ideas, I played along, finding a church that would allow her to explore her theistic ideas, without instilling the bigotry and dreary doctrines of my youth. West Hills Friends offered a community of love and acceptance, without...
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Posted on October 17, 2013
On June 3, 2005, my husband Matthew Lyon was killed on his motorcycle by a young woman who pulled suddenly into his lane from a side road. He was on his way to Oregon Episcopal School, where he taught art and spiritual/philosophical courses. Matthew and I had been married 21 years. I was in my office, waiting for a client, when the doorbell rang. I went into the waiting room and was elementally shocked...
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Posted on October 17, 2013
Every night it is the same: no map, only a handful of trust in You. I stand at the shore of my life each evening while the day’s light flows away from me, all the color pulling down after it until only a dim edge remains, and then it is gone too. I fall over the edge of awareness as light pulls away and I drift, afloat...
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Posted on October 17, 2013
When I was ten months old, we moved to Alaska and I began to live at the edge of wilderness. First we lived in tiny Skagway, surrounded by towering mountains on three sides. In Palmer, the mountains filled our living room window, and in turn pulled our gaze back out to their shimmering snowy peaks. Moose wandered in our yard on occasion and we skated clumsily on a nearby frozen pond up the street. Wilderness...
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Posted on October 17, 2013
– Margaret Kellermann
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Posted on October 17, 2013
Thrust into the wilderness, unwilling terrified without choice heels dug in, bloodied as I go ahead anyhow landmarks lost gone life cracked broken stripped alone grieving lost. Newness comes the present moment breaks through the Now is greater than grieving the past or fearing the future it demands I see feel hear around me I find beauty life love and people, old and dear and new Spirit waits, and fills me when I trust...
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Posted on October 17, 2013
In the spring of 2011, I found joy throughout a rough work situation via solace and outward glow of a new life growing within. I survived my workdays by patting my stomach and thinking of the little one that would join our family. Taylor had her own glow as she ran to me, smiled, and hugged me more often than usual. She could not wait to be a big sister. I had tried...
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Posted on October 17, 2013
“And we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into His likeness, from one degree of glory to the next.” 2 Cor 3:18 “… make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, mutual affection; and to mutual affection, love. For if you possess these...
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Posted on October 17, 2013
I first felt nudged toward pursuing a career as a mortician about three years ago. I quickly dismissed the idea and went on with my life. Every so often I would feel this thought fluttering on the fringe of my mind, as I thought about what I would do next (when my children started school full time and I planned to go back to work). The little nudges began to occur with more and...
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Posted on October 17, 2013
At first You were my happiness When I felt none You gave me hope For something good And that hope Brought a secret joy You were a daughter Or son A sibling One we cherished And loved You were the smile On my face And the laughter In your sister’s voice. You were all these things From the time we knew you were there Tucked away inside me Until we understood So abruptly That your...
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Posted on October 17, 2013
Sometime after my miscarriage in April 2011, I w as at Midas waiting for an oil change. I had spent at least two weeks sitting in our rocking chair staring blankly, crying, meditating, and communicating with our baby—conveying my deep love and apologizing for my inability to protect. At the mechanic, I could sit no longer. I was completely numb and vulnerable. Everything reminded me of my loss. I did not want anyone to...
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